#themidnightocean + July 8th,2022
What a journey this has been to discover a love so profound. It is not to just follow the law of God, for it is to recongizeHis death on the cross that remits sin. It would be in vain to think we can do the saving ourselves, it was what I thought for many years. My own efforts can win me security, then I could start a family or really let myself love someone.
Galatians ch.2 verse 20-21, came across my path at a low time, when opening a little book,
“ And I live, now not I; but Christ liveth in me. And that I live now in the flesh: I live in the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and delivered himself for me.” I cast not away the grace of God. For if justice be by the law, then Christ died in vain.”[Galatians 2:20-21]
like when it is low tide, the world had seemed to slow down and the waves were not strong and allowed me to reflect on the Heavenly things like when the water is still and reflects the sky. In those moments reading the verses I knew I could be myself washing away the illusion of my selfishness that masked all the good I had sought to be. Realizing nothing I could have done could have given me peace, but the immense mercy knowing that God would humble himself to show me His enduring love for me during my crimes of sin and his patience with me to take on the justice I had so often deserved. Yet, verse twenty-one made me always turn back to “then Christ died in vain” to think that by the law alone, that is to say by my own actions even in the following of religion I can let it be in vain thinking Christ died in vain in the fear my sins are greater than His love on the cross and my confession to him, in his priest, after twelves years was my step of humility in accepting that cost. Living in grace by imitation of Christ living in me has been this journey to let go, for this is the Midnight Ocean, when the ocean is there and grace is hidden behind the breeze and smells, but often we can not see the vast love in the distance.
+Pax in umbra Dei,